||[Nov. 27th, 2007|10:27 pm]
seriously...every guy I have had any feelings for this year has turned out to be gay?!?! WHAT THE FUCK!?!?! Well accept for one...but I don't like him he's annoying as hell...but I still talk to him...so maybe I do have feelings for him...I DON'T EVEN KNOW! But nothing would go anywhere with that even if I did like him! All I want is to be like and chased and caught and loved and held and BAH!!!! It has been way too long since I've gone on a date...since I have even been asked! And it is the only thing I can think about. am I really that ugly? annoying? weird? I don't get. I just don't get it! I just feel like shit...and I feel like God is just messing with me and mocking me...or maybe I don't want to be caught...maybe I just want to flirt with a whole bunch of them...but I don't even have anyone to flirt with!!!! THAT'S ALL I NEED!!! I need a good party to go to...but I'm not really in that crowd right now either! BAH! AND I LOOKED CUTE TODAY TOO! for once...and I saw no one!
I need a hug.